Tuesday, November 5, 2013

November

Every now and then, I like to stop and consider what the last year has brought us. What did we learn? How did we grow? What was difficult, and what was wonderful?

At this point last November, we had just begun our steps toward IVF. I had found out about my Diminished Ovarian Reserve (DOR)––which was extremely disappointing––but had chosen to move ahead with IVF anyway, hoping for the best. We had our entire church family pray for us and experienced an incredible amount of love and support as we prepared for our IVF. In the late winter and early spring, we were geared for our IVF...only to have it demoted to an IUI because of my lack of response. We tried again, upping all the medication, and were thrilled to be able to have two embryos make it! We loved them. (Still do.) On April 21, those two tiny embryos were transferred. We had an amazing two weeks where we allowed ourselves to be full of gratitude and joy for our embryos and the gift God had given us. Of course, our hearts were crushed on May 3rd when we learned we were not pregnant. As we crumbled to pieces, all of our friends and family gathered around us to help pick us up.

In June, we celebrated eight years of marriage together with a fantastic week at the Central Coast, and the rest of our summer was one sweet moment after another! Throughout those months and until now we have continued to heal, grieve, laugh, cry, rejoice, question, accept, listen, and hope.

Yes, so much hope. Hope that God heals, that He moves, that He cares. Hope that God can take our broken hearts and not only mend them but open them wide to something new and different He has in store for us.

A year can bring so much, can't it?

8 comments:

  1. A year can certainly bring so much ... I hope your life is filled with much joy between now and next November. :)

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  2. So glad you are finding hope! Love the new blog look!

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  3. HE truly is so good to us. Even through our deepest hurts, those are always (for me anyway) the times that I really get glimpses of how much He loves us. It's weird how you'd never want to relive it, but you also wouldn't change it. Still praying for you guys and excited to see all that God has for you as you continue on your journey.

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    1. So true: "You'd never want to relive it, but you also wouldn't change it." Even being in it still, I recognize that this is true!

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  4. I am so grateful to be able to follow your journey and faith in the Lord. I am so encouraged each time I read your sweet blog. I nominated you for the Sunshine award. Go on over and check it out! http://cheerstoplana.wordpress.com/2013/11/23/my-very-first-blog-award/

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    1. Thanks, Kailey! I've been out of town so didn't get a chance to see this! What a sweet honor.

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