Thursday, April 28, 2011

Something New

It's been a few weeks since we got the BFN, and things have moved along and settled into normal again.  We still feel really good about not pursuing the fertility treatments, and although I've had a bit of cyst pain, it's been great not worrying about pills and needles.  We also have felt the strong and calming presence of God, especially the last weekend during Easter.  We don't know what the future will hold exactly (or maybe at all!), but we do know God is with us and has a perfect plan for us!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


BFN = Big Fat Negative

One of these days, perhaps I will get to see a BFP.  But today, that was not so.  We are heartbroken and disappointed beyond words.  I truly had felt that this month was it for me, more than I have ever felt.  There were symptoms I had that I rarely if ever have had before, and the cramping was much duller and later than it usually is.  I think that makes it harder, but perhaps not.  I'm sad every month, and I wonder when that will ever end.

Thank you, as always, for your prayers and love.  It is only through God's gracious presence in our lives that we are able to keep going, even today, when we are so full of sorrow.