I haven't spent much time on this blog in the last year. I can only say that it's not due to the fact that I don't think often about a baby. It's the opposite. I think about it all the time, so much so that it's just part of my life now. In some ways, this struggle becomes easier with time. I feel that God continues to grow my patience and understanding. I don't have the same levels of anger or anxiety I once had. But in other ways, the struggle becomes harder the longer it continues, and I wonder if it will ever be over.
The New Year always brings new hope for me, though, and I look forward to seeing what God will do in our lives.